But it wasn't just my job that meant I preferred jeans to dresses, and trainers to stilettos. No, it was my own personal choice. I've never been what you'd call a "girly-girl", it's just never been me. I'm not saying I don't ever get dressed up, I do. But it's usually only when we go to Tenerife to spend a couple of days in our apartment over there, which isn't that often now! Over there I kind of change completely into a whole different person, throwing on the make-up and the dresses and the lovely, strappy heels and sandals (even if I can't walk in them!), turning into this glamorous version of myself. If you were to take a look at my wardrobe over there in Tenerife, and then look at my wardrobe here at home in the U.K., you'd think they belonged to two completely different women! One's full of lovely, floaty dresses and tops, short skirts and gorgeous shoes, while the other is piles of jeans and t-shirts, biker boots and trainers! My legs very rarely ever see the light of day in Britain. Even now, as we in the U.K. experience autumn temperatures of over 28 degrees, my legs are still hidden behind jeans and will stay that way, thank you very much.
But, the weird thing is, it's not that I don't want to be glamorous - I do! I'd love to be glamorous, but I know it just doesn't suit me. Not really. I'm a closet rock chick; I love tattoos and leather jackets (of the biker variety), wild hair and denim, Dave Grohl to Brad Pitt, and loud, banging rock music over Beyonce. That's me, that's who I really am. I'm more jealous of Kat Von D (from L.A. Ink) and all her tattoos than I could ever be of Cheryl Cole and her latest outfit.
But that doesn't mean to say that I can't be glamorous in other ways. I'm a writer, after all. I can be who I want, when I want. I can get that glamour by creating it in the pages of a book. Because, despite being the girl who listens to ZZ Top in the bath and is currently deciding where to have her next tattoo, the kind of books I read have almost always been the kind that provide glamour, romance and escapism. A total contradiction to the way I may come across as a person, I suppose, but that's what I've always loved to read. It's not the only thing I read, I also love a good thriller and I'm a sucker for a James Herbert horror novel, I didn't sleep for a week after reading 'The Dark'! But if I was given a choice to pick only one genre to read, it would always be the romantic/glamorous/escapist novels - Jackie Collins, Jilly Cooper, Danielle Steele...throw one of those in my direction and I'm one very happy woman!
I guess what I'm trying to say here, is that how we appear on the outside may not always be what we feel on the inside. That's the case for me, and it's also the case for those two characters I've mentioned there - Stevie and India. I love my rock music and biker boots, but there's also a part of me that loves the idea of a gorgeous floaty dress and high-heeled sandals. And my characters may think they know themselves inside out, but there are parts of themselves that they're trying to keep hidden... but you know what you have to do if you want to find out just what they're hiding, and what the consequences of doing that turn out to be. ;-)
In the meantime, I'm off to hang out a few more of those t-shirts of mine on the washing line outside, and get ready for an afternoon of writing more glamorous, sexy escapism whilst wearing jeans and trainers!! It's all good...